It sucks getting so screwed over by guys. I hate that ive been so mistreated in the past that now once i get something good i question every little thing. How can i be jealous, when i hangout with guys myself? Its like pointing fingers, when i know my own hands arent clean. And its the sadest thing when we talk and he ends up crying because of my jealousy and hes thinking its a way of shoving his love for me back in his face when hes never done one single thing to make me hurt, or mistreat me. I just dont know, i wish it wasnt this way. I wish i didnt care. And im surprized because im ususally so emotionally strong and i know just what to say when my girlfriends come to me with their weaknesses but when its my turn i havent the slightest clue how to act.
I know he loves me.
He shows me every day.
Ive got to stop acting this way</3